XEROPITTURA

Post-Elitism And Religion

It's no surprise to anyone that I'm catholic. I wasn't always a christ follower like I am nowadays but something

I always tell people is how I am able to aknowledge how my life situation was like before I actually met Christ.

A few years ago, because of a moment I've had depression and planned my departure from this planet, I found a

book online called "Psychosis 4:48" and for the first time since a teenager, I found myself being engaged with

something that made me want to create more and more. And because of how much I was reading all the time, I found

a couple books about satanism and black magic on an old shop around the corner. one of them came with old stone

Goetia sigils and the other one was some kind of book about how satanic rituals should be introduced, with

a CD by Anton La'Vey, the nerd who founded the "first" satanic church.

Now, if you're a teenager like me: always bored, not feeling shit everyday, and with a lack of self esteem,

you will eventually find places that pretend to care about you like you matter. You're going to read a lot of

articles and instagram posts on how these people, in this specific religion, have been saved from eternal

suffering by just loving their peers, theirselves and being free. For a moment, those kind of thoughts also

came to me. Like, why won't Jesus stop me from self harming and hiding my scars with my Chanel liquid makeup?

Why is God allowing me to suffer this much if I haven't done shit to anyone? Why?

So I did it. I started practicing black magic in a small apartment, started visiting hidden forums dedicated to

Goetia, and started hoarding rare tarot card decks in my closet. As well as getting 3 of the rarest spirit board

I could've find on eBay at the time. So you can imagine how nuts I started to get after some time. Not only my

apartment and clothes started to smell like shit and weed because of the frankincense I got, but also most of

the things related to my physical appearence started to decay over time. I was getting uglier, more depressed

and eventually, the things who brought me euphoria months before didn't make me feel anything at all. These

same people who pretended to care about me, started to drift away from my path once they realized they'd never

get shit from me ever again, wether it was clothes, money or comfort words.

But I have to admit it was my fault for not realizing that everyone who claimed to be free and unique were

dressing the same, behaving the same and believing the same kinds of new age bullshit the media pushes them

to believe. Also, would it be foul of me to mention how most of these people who were against Catholicism

supported religions who would've thrown them off buildings? Yes? Okay I'll be quiet on that subject.

But after all, what I'm trying to say here is, wether it's political or a religious prototype of belief started

by a schizophrenic dude in the state of psychosis, everyone is going to tell you how THEY own the absolute

truth, how THEY know the real way to live, how THEY are right on everything. And it's important you consider

ignoring these people long enough to start seeing their flaws from a safe distance. Don't believe it at first.

Take your own time to see if it makes sense to give demons food in exchange of someone's death, if pieces of

paper can describe a future that doesn't exist, or if rocks can make you feel good about yourself. Especially

if the people selling you this kind of narrative are indestructable. P'S; they're not.

The only perfect person who's ever been on earth is Jesus Christ, and the only religion who still respects Him

and his father's teachings is Orthodox Catholicism. All you need is Jesus and nothing else. He's saved me and

He's also going to reach his hands for you. Never give up, keep fighting and make Him proud of your path.

If I fought against fake idols and met the truth, I know you can too. I believe in you.

IN THE NAME OF THE FATHER, THE SON

AND THE HOLY SPIRIT: AMEN.