A Little More Than Zero

Fear And Hunger

Imagine you're someone who's telling everyone around you that you're willing to sacrifice anything in order to

have all the knowledge you wish to have, then boom. Someone outside of your circle appears from thin air and then

shows you everything you've ever wished to have. How are you going to react? Every single person who's flaunting

anything both online and in real life are not meaning it. Chances are, they're lying to you about wanting to

know more about the planet to make you believe they're just being humble.

My main problem in life has always been based on how much I'm willing to continue an argument. I learned with my

great-aunt that every single thing you're setting yourself to do HAS to be either perfect or discarted. No inbetween.

So for my whole life, I made this little promise to myself I'd go as far as I could, gathering as much info and

options as I could have so I could one day help somebody out with their problems. Wich, by itself wasn't a big

problem until I've got hoards of people asking me to help them out on certain situations and then ghosting me

after getting what they wanted. Or somethimes, these same people would just ghost me out of pride, because they

usually felt like having a lot of problems meant they had much honor.

These problems weren't always too basic or too complicated, but they needed patience to be resolved. They needed

a couple thoughts here and there to first locate the main root of it, then slowly cut it's branches until they've

reached the main trunk. Then, as soon as you chop it off or burn it, there's nothing else to worry about. I mean,

that's how it should work, right? I wish I learned this lesson sooner but, everyone you've ever met has something

going on in their lives and they feel like being ostracized for their problems brings them power. That's why you

don't see anyone nowadays working their asses off in order to have a good life, they rather blame it on capitalism

or governants because it makes them feel like the blame is on something else entirely different and distant from

theirselves. It takes away their pride and self-respect if they tell you they're unable to do anything.

With that being said, I now imagine you're able to think about at least a couple situations in wich the described

situation applies. Pride takes place when you're told that the problems you're facing are not your fault and

that there's a bigger enemy outside of your environment ruining your life. And most often you're told that one

tool is enough to resolve your problems, wether it's a politician, an influencer, a religion, a new music genre,

you name it. You're basically surrounded with tools that are supposed to help you and at first glance it seems

amazing that such an easy choice could've lead your life so much smoother, wish you discovered it sooner, huh?

But, at some extent, these problems are not gone, because you've been lied to. You're the root of it and once

someone tells you it's easy to resolve the said issue and get around it, your frontal cortex stops working and

you tend to act like a child and try to convince yourself that the truth is a lie and that the lie is the only

truth that matters in your life. Sooner or later, you're going to be reminded that every single issue you've

pushed away still exists, everything wrong that you've ever done are the only responsible things for your now

perceived failure, and that no external tool will come your way to magically help you.

Sometimes you need to look inwards. The planet earth has always been full of noises and fake solutions. Wich means

you'll most probably be pushed onto ideologies and narratives because you'll feel like this is the only way someone

like you will make longterm friendships, when all that matters is already within you. You'll hate to know the real

way to make it in life is way more simple than what you're being told right now, and I'm not expecting you to get

any better. I just like to point fingers sometimes and say "HA HA YOU FUCKING LOSER!"